On May 2, 2012, my wife (Diane) and I were told that I have inoperable stage IV pancreatic cancer that had spread to the liver. That diagnosis was later tweaked (May 11) insofar as the oncologist was not ready to concede that the lesions on my liver are cancerous. In any event, the doctors’ prognosis is that I will live about a year, give or take a few months — although they do acknowledge that some people live longer . . . even years longer. Shortly after this diagnosis my close friend told me that my purpose in this, as in all things in my life, is to glorify to God. Hence this blog.
It seems to me that if I live, people will be inclined to glorify God, but if I die, some folks may conclude, wrongly, that there is no God. Or that He is somehow cruel or uncaring. And so I want to keep a “real time” diary of sorts, that memorializes how the Lord walks through this with my wife Diane, my daughters Megan (20), Cara (18-1/2), and Mallory (17-1/2), and me.
My family and I are grounded and rooted in Christ, and trust that these circumstances have been filtered through the fingertips of our God in heaven who loves us and is with us. We trust that He decided it was ok for us to go through this with Him, and pray that we would glorify Him as we walk through these shadows, no matter the outcome. Although our tears have been many and deep, the Lord has upheld us with grace, love, and peace — and even a deep abiding joy, knowing that we are in the hands of the King of Kings. As a close friend asked me long ago, “where else would we want to be?”.
I fully trust Him — my Abba Father, my Savior Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit — and trust that He will reveal more and more of how beautiful He is – and how utterly, lovingly invested He is in us — as our days move forward. That is what this blog is about.
(For purposes of this blog, May 2, 2012, the day we found out, is “Day 0″, and each subsequent day is numbered accordingly (e.g., May 12, 2012 is “Day 10″).)